power thisSoapopera
April 1997
Our second full length album.
Rite-Off Records 1137-2

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Track Listing

  1. Speechless
  2. Soapopera
  3. Brand New Sunglasses
  4. Bittersweet Day
  5. Martyrs
  6. Mite
  7. Too Far
  8. Stupid One
  9. Overdrawn
  10. My Favorite Fear
  11. Fingernails
  12. Prerequisite Rocker
  13. So Many Times
  14. Only Smile

Lyrics

speechless (chow/kennedy/welsh)
waking with a thought that fades, a glimmer gone for good/imagining the other face, I'm finding that I should not look beyond the comfort clause to see how this will end/the floor and ceiling never meet/I'm walking on my hands/I love you when you're miles away/I'm speechless in your presence/I'll think about you twice a day, and smile through my sentence/still all in all, the speechless call from my heart is your name/the endless ring of reckoning's the same/fading with a day that greys/a wish that won't but would/just let me know the time and place my statues never stood/I'm numb and cold from shoulders up, so self-absorbed, it stings/with feeling gone, I'm drained of thought/please tell me what this means/so now connect and fall apart/I'm speechless in your presence/no, you can't say we never tried to gamble with the heavens/still all in all, the speechless call from my heart is your name/the restless ring of reckoning's the same/the speechless call…/I love you when you're miles away/I'm speechless in your presence/I'll think about you twice a day, and smile through my sentence/so now connect and fall apart/I'm speechless in your presence/no, you can't say we never tried to gamble with the heavens

soapopera (wehler/chow/kennedy/connor)
I met her standing at a bus stop sign/came up to me, asked the time/I couldn't tell her, 'cause my arms were bare/she smiled and shrugged, didn't care that I couldn't help her out/I coudn't give her any information/she left me stranded with a nagging doubt, and with a sense of agitation/I saw her later at the laundromat/watched her as I washed my hat/I didn't notice that my clothed turned pink/she smiled, stood up, and she came over just to help me out/she got me through my color separation/was this my chance just to ask her out, or just idle conversation?/oh, no - here I go again/I'm crawling on the floor again/I'm falling for a girl again/my hands are wet, but my clothes are dry/I wish I'd known which brand of soap to buy/your place or mine, baby?/ oh, no - here I go again/I'm crawling on the floor again/I'm falling for a girl again

brand new sunglasses (kennedy/welsh/epperson)
waiting for something to come and engage him/he's waited so long to be where…/(I don't know this one) how does this one go?/(I'm alone and) I'm alone, staring down through his brand new sunglasses gone/her shiny smile makes him wanna try her on, but for her knees giving way again, the dance continues/insecurities are an ugly friend, oh yeah/waiting for something to come and engage her/she's waited so long to be where…/(I don't know this one) how does this one go?/(I'm alone and) I'm alone, staring down through her brand new sunglasses gone/his shiny smile makes her wanna try him on, but for his knees giving way again, the dance continues/ insecurities are an ugly friend, but then again… it's starting slow, spirits flowing through their veins will make a change, but there they go, spinning so their waiting will be through/waiting for someone to come and engage me/I've waited so long to be where… I've waited so long to be there… I've waited so long to be here/ (I don't know this one) how does this one go?/(I'm alone and) I'm alone, staring down through his brand new sunglasses gone/her shiny smile makes him wanna try her on, but for her knees giving way again, the dance continues/insecurities are an ugly friend, but then again, again

bittersweet day (connor/kennedy/epperson)
where to begin, pulling names from a hat with no brim/my patience wears thin/it's coming around/I just can't keep from smiling again/a painted-on grin/ I wonder why I never get to sleep/I'm lying down in emptiness too deep/ bittersweet something missing/kiss me, and I will be strong/just play along/ you were the first one listening to someone with nothing to say/bittersweet day/it's time to get down, pull myself off the ceiling again/I've got business outside, and I can't run away/have to be everywhere at one time, and I'm always behind/please tell her how I never get to sleep, 'cause I'm lying down in emptiness too deep/bittersweet something missing/kiss me, and I will be strong/and did I say you were the first one listening to someone with nothing to say?/bittersweet day/it's fine to let go of the anger that's building inside/all my motives collide, and it feels like the day to begin taking care of myself/ I've got places to go/please tell her how I never get to sleep, 'cause I'm lying down in emptiness too deep/bittersweet something missing/kiss me, and I will be strong/just play along/you were the first one listening to someone with nothing to say/bittersweet day

martyrs (kennedy/chow/epperson/welsh)
climb into a burning cadillac to seal your suicidal pact, and get the monkey off your back, and maybe make some money/take a roundhouse on the chin, invite the boston strangler in, take a fall like gunga din/martyrs can be funny/well am I the worst case you've found holding you down?/ghandi and your mommy built a cross for you, then the dalai lama showed you that hair-do, but you were smarter, brand new martyr/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/god's new fool, that's so cool/throw your coat down in the rain, take a bullet in the brain, tell your friends you're not insane, but your nose is runny/burn with joan out on the stake, walk across the coals you rake, think of all the friends you make/martyrs sure are funny/am I the best friend you've got when I'm not around?/ghandi and your mommy built a cross for you, then the dalai lama showed you that hair-do, but you were smarter, brand new martyr/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/god's new fool, that's so cool/you can beat yourself 'till you're black and blue/maybe elton john will sing for you if this song is not an apt tribute to your star/am I the worst case you've found holding you down?/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/god's new fool, that's so cool

mite (kennedy/chow/connor/wehler)
jammin' me in like I waste your time/makin' me feel like I'm asanine/well, I'm trying just to get you on the telephone, moaning "it's the wrong time," or you just aint home/I'm ugly in my bed, crepe paper in my head, and my eyes roll back, my bones all crack inside, 'cause I'm a sucking mite/I'm a bleeding bite/I take away your daylight/I smash every picture, you're still around, sleep-walking naked all over town, and you're sucking, sucking, sucking all my energy/hands up in the air, there's nothing left of me, with eyes revolting red from all the things you said, I tuck my tail, and like a snail, I hide, 'cause I'm a sucking…/with eyes revolting red from all the things you said, I tuck my tail, and like a snail, I hide, 'cause I'm a sucking mite/yeah, I'm a bleeding bite/I take away your sight/I swallow all the light/I take away your daylight… your daylight/'cause I'm a sucking…

too far (kennedy/wehler/chow)
haven't seen you for awhile now/guess the time between us brought me back, you know/here I come again to listen/waited for a year to hear you speak/I'm so weak/I'm a planet, you're my star now/I'm following you, but you're burning me with distance/you're too far/stumble blindly, falling after you/can't see through these blisters on my eyes/count on me to tag along/ anywhere I go I don't belong/I'm always wrong/I'm a planet, you're my star now/I'm circling you, but I know I'll never reach you/you're too far/I'm a planet, you're my star now/you're all that I know, but I know I'll never reach you/you're too far/I'm a planet, you're my star now/I'm following you, but I know I'll never reach you/you're too far… too far

stupid one (kennedy/chow/yanek)
I suppose you're wanting me to get down on my hands and knees and say you are the only one I've found out there for me, but I hate to let you down/ you finally think you thought you found someone that you could use like this and always be around/well how does it feel to be the stupid one, trying to explain this ugly mess to everyone?/now that it's real, and what's done is done, there's no one left for you to blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's no big deal to be the stupid one/your mother always wanted you to grow up to be someone who could take the world right by the balls and crown yourself a queen, but like the cutest puppy dog that grows into a mongrel, you've screwed around and thrown away the chance you had with me/well how does it feel to be the stupid one, trying to explain this ugly mess to everyone?/now that it's real, and what's done is done, there's no one left for you to blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's no big deal to be the stupid…/a thousand times I told myself that there was you and no one else, but if that's true, I'm telling you I'm giving up, 'cause trying's only trying/truth be told, I'm glad you're crying/your souvenirs mean nothing to me now/hey - how does it feel to be the stupid one trying to explain this ugly mess to everyone?/now that it's real, and what's done is done, there's no one left for you to blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's no big deal to be the stupid one

overdrawn (chow/kennedy)
her talk is cheap, but she's making little sense/while I'm cashing it in, she's bouncing checks/counting every kiss, it amounts to this: she's getting me up, but she's letting me down/the owner has pilferred the store/she's tied all the knots in the noose that she bought, but her credit's no good anymore/her credit's no good anymore, and she's overdrawn again/talk is cheap, but it's not for sale/she keeps telling me hers is in the mail/staring at the screen at a dying scene/she listened intently, an evening was spent as he told her the tales of his life/he wanted to move her, but "he was the loser," she said as she pulled out the knife/she said as she buried the knife, and she ran into the night comes again, and the curtain comes down/she falls out of bed, but all that she leaves me are nails pounded into my head/she's getting me up, but she's letting me down/I'm pulling away from her shores, but her credit's no good anymore, and she's overdrawn again

my favorite fear (kennedy)
oh, no/there's nothing like relief because you're already dead, nothing wrong believing all the crap that you've read/in a nutshell, it's okay to be all the stupid things you've grown to be/it's everything to be in love and just wanna die, nothing when the thing you want just spits in your eye/can you beat it, when below your feet, the ground opens up, and prepares to eat?/(oh, no) - it's trouble here again/(oh, no) - my favorite fear again, catching me without the eyes to see… my favorite/it's nice to cry your eyes out with a paper and pen, contemplating suicide with coffee and zen/it's prolific I long to be, with a donor card and hypocrisy/(oh, no) - it's trouble here again/(oh, no) - my favorite fear again, catching me without the eyes to see… my favorite, my…/oh, no - oh, yeah/it's my… it's my… it's my favorite/it's my middle name that gets me, yes, I think that's the rub/is it everything I wanted?/is it worthy of love?/is it pompous?/that's what I tend to be/a walking greeting card's type philosophy/(oh, no) - it's trouble here again/(oh, no) - my favorite fear again, catching me without the eyes to see my… my favorite, yeah/(oh, no) - my favorite fear, yeah, catching me without the eyes to see/my favorite, my… / oh, no - you're catching me without the eyes to see

fingernails (kennedy)
get it right this time/learn to pay no mind/try to see it through/pray it all comes true, and it's alright if inside you've already succumbed to the gloom/ you're the uncoolest thing that I've run into, but I can't pull my fingernails from you/is it funny as hell to watch me lose?/mouth to mouth insight/nothing else seems right/thirsting for this pain/unwashable blood stain/if it comes out, with no doubt, I'm a fool who knows way more than you/you're the screwed-upest thing that I've run into, but I'm feeling my fingernails pull through/is it funny as hell to watch me lose?/… to watch me lose… to watch me lose/live through all I do, shameful, sad, and true/do it all for you/a one-way fist-class fool/you're the uncoolest thing that I've run into, but I can' pull my fingernails from you/is it funny as hell to watch me lose?/… to watch me lose… to watch me lose

prerequisite rocker (kennedy)
the last time I had one, it bit me/you said, "take a chance,"/see what it's gotten me/so I put my foot down, and said: bone-crunching, blistering, bad-acid bowling for premature pregnant teenagers with no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted tube tops, a magic potion/I've got a bone to pick/ watch out for the explosion/so I put on my make-up and hit the town/ strapped on my hairspray for a go-around/I waxed down my axe, now, for a splinter-scene, and then I twist my head 'round, and said: bone-crunching, blistering, bad-acid bowling for premature pregnant teenager with no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted tube-tops, a magic potion/I've got an axe to grind/watch out for the explosion/the last time I had one, it bit me/you said, "take a chance,"/see what it's gotten me/so I twist my head 'round, and said: bone-crunching, blistering, bad-acid bowling for premature pregnant teenagers with no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted tube-tops, a magic potion/I've got a bone to pick/watch out for the explosion

so many times (kennedy/chow/yanek)
what would you think of me tomorrow, if I let you down today, looking for the words to say?/how could I face a day without you?/I couldn't find the strength alone/I could not make it on my own, if you're not there/so many times you try to catch me/so many times you watch me fall/so many times to try to help me make some sense of it all/so many times I've been afraid to even call/ when all these words are left unspoken, will they shadow all our doubts?/can we learn to live without all these fears?/so many times you try to catch me/so many times you watch me fall/so many times to try to help me make some sense of it all/so many times I've been afraid to even call/don't watch if I go, and I leave you here again/these things stay the same, and the cycle never ends - and when the silence has been broken, would you listen to my song, even if it came out wrong?/it's loud and clear/so many times you try to catch me/so many times you watch me fall/so many times you try to help me make some sense of it all/so many times you catch me running/ so many times you slow me down/so many times I've been afraid to even call

only smile (kennedy/wehler/connor)
well you can take your sweet old time/I am resigned to hang around on your front porch, and outside your door/I'll rack my brain to let you know you're my only smile today/don't you ever go away/you're my only smile today/ don't go away/when you're not home I lose my breath/I sing this song, this song that takes me to your front porch, and outside your door/I've racked my brain/I turn to go/you're my only smile today/don't you ever go away/you're my only smile today/don't go away